I’ve now been training with Tracy Ballarini, my fantastic personal trainer, for three weeks now. In addition to the results noted in my two week results update, the following outcomes stand out to me:
1) I’m down a dress size. With a lot of formerly snug clothes feeling loose on me, I suspected I might have gone down a full size, but confirmed it today by trying on lots of clothes in three different shops. (I am badly in need of a new pair of all-purpose black trousers, as my existing pair – which my fiancé’s mother has already altered for me three times – are now hanging off my backside in a rather unflattering way. I have other pairs of black trousers, but those were my favorite. Sadly, I can find no trousers in all of London which both fit my ass the right way and don’t measure an inch too short in the leg.)
2) I think about exercising all the time. I read about it quite a lot, and I talk about it a lot with my fiancé, and if you were to ask me at any point in the day what I’m thinking about, I’d probably answer: “Exercising!” I remember a friend of mine who was really into bodybuilding in high school (he went on to play football for Army) telling me that he thought of weightlifting almost non-stop, and at the time, I thought that was pretty sad. But I need to be intensely focused on a goal in order to attack it with enthusiasm, so I’m not feeling too pathetic for my pre-occupation just yet.
3) The cardio aspect of exercising is not as tough for me as it was at the beginning. As soon as Tracy and I leave my house, we’re heading uphill for a good five minutes, and there’s still the killer hill in the middle of our route. At the beginning, I’d often be hating the uphill stuff like you wouldn’t believe. Over the last week, I’ve noticed that it’s not as bad as I remember.
4) I’m doing a lot more reps of my exercises. It probably doesn’t seem like a lot to a seasoned athlete, but I’m now doing 45 tricep dips, 45 push-ups/press-ups, God knows how many crunches (Tracy never counts them until my last five, but I’ve got to the point where I actually cry out in relief as I finish the last crunch of my set), and a wider variety of other exercises in my toning routine. At the beginning, I was doing just 16 tricep dips and 16 push-ups/press-ups. I hadn’t done any sort of non-cardio or resistance work since I was in high school, so I would have had no idea where to start if not for Tracy’s expert guidance.
5) I look forward to exercising. Man, I never believed that would happen. The days I don’t see Tracy (Wednesday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday), I feel like a huge slacker. I know my body needs rest, but I’ve been looking into what I can do on my non-Tracy days to make me progress faster and feel less lazy.
6) I’m getting very intrigued by the idea of training for a running race next year. I’ve found some good beginners’ training programs on the Runner’s World website, and have started reading the magazine, which makes me feel all fired up to get started. I want to be careful not to demand more of myself than I can manage at this point, but I’m also going to try and see what I can do to work towards the goal of running an actual race next year.
7) My focus on exercise means that I’m not really thinking a lot about food. I’m still eating as healthfully as ever, but I’m also a little less hard on myself when I have my weekly day or night off-plan. I just don’t want to have a life where I can’t go out for some beers and a curry and not beat myself up about it for days afterwards, so I’ve decided I’m simply not going to do that to myself. There are still pangs of guilt, but they’re not as strong as they once were. (That said, I’ve had no such day or night off this week. Yet.)
To sum up, I just can’t believe I waited so long to get my own trainer and take a more head-on approach to getting fit. Then again, I still can’t believe I waited so long to try to lose all the weight that I already have. We do these things in our own time, I guess, and my one goal now is never to turn back.